sometimes i think about what would’ve happened if steve didnt crash into the ice. i think about peggy and their family and their house and how someday he would chase her around the house because she started singing that “star spangled man with a plan” song and he’s just laughing so hard he cant catch her.
So I spray pesticide for my job. I go to so many houses and see lots of stuff. Today I saw the saddest thing. I went to this house and as I got near the gate to the backyard I see through the fence a little white dog and hear his collar jingling around. He didn’t make a peep. So I open the gate and she was a little skiddish and shaky, but she warmed right up to me. I petted her for so long because she looked lonely and had the saddest eyes. So eventually I had to get back to spraying the house. She must not get enough food and water, because when I was spraying, I saw her licking some rain water out of a tiny puddle. I just stopped and watched her. I teared up. My heart broke into a million pieces. I have the softest of spots for dogs, especially for those that are mistreated. As I finished up and closed the gate for the last time, and watched me walk away through a crack in the fence. I just wanted to sit in my truck and ball my eyes out.